good news?

recently
although is rainy day
but
my mood does not like last time
will direct change into emo mood
do this prove that
i already went out from the "shadow" ?
do i?

on the others hand
i feel that
i'm getting weird and weird and weird now
what's thing had done to me?
do i really had change something of me?
or
i just feel tired?
tired for what i had done previous times?
then what actually i had done?
my brain is totally blank out
do i tired because i done nothing?
hahahahaha...

Do someone still remember what relationship of "y and i" ?
i guess...
the people must forgotten for long time...
haha...
maybe for the people
this does not a big matter
but for me
is very meaningful for me >.<
although until now...

how come my memory so good in this kind of thing but not in my study?
tat why i so hate myself...
haiz..
really damn it...

(please kindly comment about my english level to make me improve, thank)